Friday, October 21, 2016

A Loss We Never Expected


Tomorrow, we are going to a funeral. We are going to bury my third niece, who was supposed to be born in just a couple of weeks. Last Thursday my brother and sister-in-law were told that their daughter's heart had stopped beating, and she would never join us on this earth. They named her on Friday, and on Saturday afternoon my sister-in-law gave birth to Hannah Joy, who was already being held by Jesus.

Hannah is my third niece, and she was supposed to be here in early November. Nobody expected to hear that Jesus had taken her to heaven so early. Nobody expected to have to say goodbye to a little girl we've never gotten the chance to know. Nobody expected that we would never get the chance to know her.

We are all grieving, and I am so angry. I know we will likely never know the reason for her death and that God's reasoning is beyond ours, so I shouldn't be angry, but I can't help it. I am so angry that He took her from us. I'm so angry that we will never get to know her. I'm just so angry and sad and devastated.

Our entire family covets prayer right now, and we are so thankful for the kind words everyone has given, and for the hope we have in Jesus.

Hanna Joy, we love you so deeply. We miss you fiercely. You will never be forgotten, and we have loved you for you entire life.


19 comments:

  1. Oh Juilette, I am so sorry for you & your family's loss. Draw nearer to God during this confusing, heartbreaking time. She is so loved and knows that. For the bond between her and her mother is all that she knew; closeness, love and safety.

    Stay strong, dearest.

    In faith & with lots of love,

    Fallon

    Ps. Praying for you all!

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  2. OH my ... Juliette, I am so sorry. All the prayers, thoughts ... thinking of your family, constantly.

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  3. I'm so sorry, Juliette. Prayers to your family. :(

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  4. I am very sorry for your family's loss. Keeping you all in my prayers.

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  5. Oh my gosh I am immensely sorry for your family's loss. I cannot even imagine how heartbreaking this is. That verse is perfect though. I pray for comfort and peace that only God can offer.

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  6. My heart breaks for your family, and I am so sorry you are all going through this. Sending much love to you all.

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  7. I am so sorry for your loss Juliette, I will keep you all in my prayers.

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  8. Oh Juliette, my heart hurts for you and your family. Praying. <3

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  9. I am so very sorry for the loss that you and your family are having to go through right now. Prayers and love are being sent your way. <3

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  10. Juliette, so very sorry for your loss. I just cant even imagine the feelings you all are experiencing. Prayers for peace and comfort. Lots of love, my friend.

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  11. Juliette, I am so sorry for your loss. Praying that God will surround you and your family with people who will care for you during this difficult time and that you will find peace in the days to come. <3

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  12. I am so sorry for your families loss.. I'm praying and I love you!

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  13. My heart is broken for you and your family, especially your brother and sister-in-law! Lots of prayers coming your way. I cannot even imagine what this must feel like.

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  14. I love you so much, and I'm praying and thinking about you and your family every day <3

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  15. I'm so, so sorry for your loss. A few years ago I went to the funeral of a one-day-old baby and it may have been the saddest experience of my life. Sometimes God's plans just don't make sense. I'll be keeping you and your family in my prayers. <3

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  16. This happened to my mom/ brother as well. I was young enough that I didn't quite understand but my mom always felt that loss. I am so sorry for you all. It's hard, it's okay to be mad... God can handle it. We don't understand "His plan"- it doesn't make sense a lot of times but continue to love & support one another... I pray you will feel God's love, peace & comfort.

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  17. I am so sorry for your families loss. I am sending prayers and positive thoughts to you and your family right now. <3

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  18. I am so so sorry Juliette. I can't even imagine. You have every right to be angry. I would be furious. Sending prayers to you and your family.

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  19. this is probably nothing that you want to hear, but please trust that my intentions are good. they come from a place of trial and tribulation. i was diagnosed with cerebral palsy at birth. i've had six surgeries, countless challenges and bipolar disorder because of it. my case is mild. remarkably so. i'm here today, now, largely because of how hard my parents have pushed for me to live. most times i'm grateful for that; sometimes i'm not.

    my mother had two miscarriages before me, both of which occurred in her first trimester. my great aunt had several miscarriages; two of her children have children with severe health issues. my cousin joey lost his daughter catherine when she was eight. his brother jim has a son, kevin, who has the same condition, though not as severely. my struggles are nothing compared to his. NOTHING.

    as painful as this is, as much as i know my mother and my aunt suffered those losses... as horrible as this may sound, i believe god is being merciful in such circumstances.

    i understand your anger. i would be grieving, too. there's not a day i don't wonder what it would be like if i were to have had other siblings in addition to my crazy brothers.

    that scene in steel magnolias, when sally field's character says... i just keep thinking about what annelle says: the lord works in mysterious ways.

    my older brother's in heaven. so i'm the oldest now. it's not supposed to be that way. he should be here, driving me batshit crazy. getting me laughing when i'm hurting too much. we lost him twelve years ago. he was thirty four. next year, i'll be a decade older than him.

    he will always be young. he will always be beautiful. and every time the wind blows, i think it's him saying hi.

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