So for now, I'm praying for peace, contentment, and patience. Even though I desperately want to be a mother, I don't want that to be where I find my joy or my worth. I don't want to be constantly thinking about "a few years from now" when our family grows by something other than four legged animals. I don't want to wish away the now, because I know when the future I've wished for gets here, I'll get nostalgic about what has passed.
So, if you ask me about babies, now you know what I'm really thinking when I say, "In a few years. We want to travel first."