Thursday, October 9, 2014

Worry is like a rocking chair

Today begins the first of many "lasts" over the course of the next 8 days. Today is my last Thursday at work, this weekend is my last weekend living in my town... and I'm excited and sad and feeling guilty and nervous and worried and a whole potpourri jar of emotions that got poured into a blender and turned on high and everything is really confusing and overwhelming and also the Dodgers lost and I'm so pissed about it.

But anyway, let's talk about the worry. I know, I know. Worry is like a rocking chair: it gives you something to do but it doesn't get you anywhere. Thanks for those words of encouragement; they're very helpful. Except I'm still going to worry.

First of all, since I don't have a new job lined up, what am I going to do all day? What I should do is work on the book I was writing that I realized is weird cross between The Lakehouse and Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory. Or I could read some books, like the books Lindsay and Amber suggest. I guess I could be active and jog around the lake or take the dogs on walks or clean or something, but I'm worried that I'll just be really lazy and watch Netflix all day while eating Ruffles... and I'm worried that I'll get bored.

I'm a little bit worried that I'm going to use my move against Keith. I can't decide if this is a serious worry or if I just laughed a little too much at this picture ...


...but I can totally see myself saying, "Well, I moved here so I get to pick where we eat dinner/what movie we watch/etc." 
And then there's the snow. Apparently it snows in the mountains, and I don't have much experience with snow. I'm pretty sure my Target ballet flats aren't appropriate snow shoewear, and my Fuggs went to Fugg heaven and I don't have any boots (Fuggs are fake uggs, if you didn't know) to keep my piggies warm. Can I wear moccasins? Will moccasins work? Mine are gold and shiny. They're fine, right?
Don't even get me started on chains for my car. I don't know the first things about snow chains, except that they're a pain in the a$$.

I'm worried that his dogs are going to spend so much time with me that they'll start to love me more than they love him and he'll feel neglected so he'll have to buy new dogs but they'll also love me more than him and then he'll resent me and I won't even notice because I'll be too busy paying attention to the 17 dogs that now need my attention.

Sometimes I get a little worried that all my friends who say they're going to come visit me will decide they don't want to drive up the winding mountain road and they'll just want to Skype instead.

There's no Target up there.

That's it for now. I feel like recognizing these worries is the first step toward nipping them in the bud, right? Probably. In case you didn't notice, a lot of these are sarcastic because I use humor as a defense mechanism when I'm overwhelmed or stressed or feeling like things are getting too serious. It's super healthy.

Now if you'll excuse me, I'll go back to rocking in my rocking chair. Focker out.

18 comments:

  1. OH MY GOSH YOU'RE GOING TO BE A CRAZY DOG LADY AND I CANNOT WAIT.

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    1. Also, will you rock your dogs in your chair? Because maybe with that many dogs you should get a rocking bench.

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    2. I want to testify that my wife is back after a Divorce !!!

      Hello to every one out here, am here to share the unexpected miracle that happened to me three days ago, My name is Jeffrey Dowling,i live in Texas,USA.and I`m happily married to a lovely and caring wife,with two kids A very big problem occurred in my family seven months ago,between me and my wife so terrible that she took the case to court for a divorce she said that she never wanted to stay with me again,and that she did not love me anymore So she packed out of my house and made me and my children passed through severe pain. I tried all my possible means to get her back,after much begging,but all to no avail and she confirmed it that she has made her decision,and she never wanted to see me again. So on one evening,as i was coming back from work,i met an old friend of mine who asked of my wife So i explained every thing to her,so she told me that the only way i can get my wife back,is to visit a spell caster,because it has really worked for her too So i never believed in spell,but i had no other choice,than to follow her advice. Then she gave me the email address of the spell caster whom she visited.(bravespellcaster@gmail.com}, So the next morning,i sent a mail to the address she gave to me,and the spell caster assured me that i will get my wife back the next day what an amazing statement!! I never believed,so he spoke with me,and told me everything that i need to do. Then the next morning, So surprisingly, my wife who did not call me for the past seven {7}months,gave me a call to inform me that she was coming back So Amazing!! So that was how she came back that same day,with lots of love and joy,and she apologized for her mistake,and for the pain she caused me and my children. Then from that day,our relationship was now stronger than how it were before,by the help of a spell caster . So, was now stronger than how it were before,by the help of a spell caster . So, i will advice you out there to kindly visit the same website http://bravespellcaster.yolasite.com,if you are in any condition like this,or you have any problem related to “bringing your ex back. So thanks to Dr Brave for bringing back my wife,and brought great joy to my family once again.{bravespellcaster@gmail.com} , Thanks.

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  2. PERFECTLY NORMAL WORRIES. I'm not worried that you'll wind up resenting Keith for stealing your kidney.... I mean the move, just remember that moving is your choice. It was up to you! You wanted it, you're doing it, you're taking the steps to make your life happy and get what you want. Which is AWESOME and exciting and wonderful.

    Oh but yeah as far as the dogs are concerned you're going to start loving them zomggg so much and I can't wait for all the instagrams.

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  3. I think the fact that there's no Target and you're making this move anyway is a huge indicator of your commitment to making this an awesome move so you'll be fine. Except I wouldn't be fine without a Target nearby so I don't know how you're going to be fine but I'l sure you will be.

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  4. I'm excited about Wonka at the Lake and disappointed about a Target-less mountain. I probs wont come visit now.

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  5. LOL First off, are you SURE there isn't a target? I didn't think there was a single city in the U.S. without a Target. :P As for shoes, you'll definitely want some warm boots. I was manipulated into going to Bass Pro Shop the other day (long story, haha) and I actually found the CUTEST winter boots there for a steal. You should check them or LL Bean out!
    xox
    giedre

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  6. THERES NO TARGET?!?! {Ehh ... there is always online shopping and shipping!}
    I kinda sorta resented my husband for awhile after I moved for him. And then almost overnight, this place sort of grew on me and became home ... and my "home" no longer seemed as nice and fun and homey. Granted, it took me almost 5 years to get to that place ... and hopefully it doesn't get like that for you! But yea ... totally know what you are talking about there!

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  7. I'll fly to see you. In the mountains. And let you borrow my Uggs because holy hell, even though they are ten years into being cool but they are the best most comfortable shoes ever. And my dog. I'll bring her because she's awesome and will want to play with your 17 doggies.

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  8. when i went on disability leave, i was terrified i would be bored, but i sooooo wasn't. i was soooo busy. and then i was laid off a week before i was to return to work. and unemployment has been sooooo not boring. i have been so busy. i spend hours applying for jobs, i run errands, i seem to ALWAYS have something to do. an errand to run, something. you won't be bored, i promise. and if you do, text me!!! cause we are friends and both unemployed and we can get through this!

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  9. Change, babygirl, is good. We are humans and we need change to be happy. You are making the best decision for you and your relationship right now and that is amazing. You are awesome. So proud of you!

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  10. YOU ARE GOING TO BE OKAY.
    I survived 25 years without Target and I turned out alright... at least I think so.

    You won't sit on Netflix and eat Ruffles all day because I won't let you. I'll let you gchat with me all day but only if you're working on finding a job...

    Also, your worry about the dogs is legit - you're going to love them so much and they're going to love you more than Keith and he's just going to have to get over it and omg I'm excited for this.

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  11. I find that I worry about events A LOT before they happen and then in the midst of the transition (whatever it may be) I handle it surprisingly well and calmly. Hopefully the same holds true for you! GOOD LUCK!!!

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  12. I want to testify that my wife is back after a Divorce !!!

    Hello to every one out here, am here to share the unexpected miracle that happened to me three days ago, My name is Jeffrey Dowling,i live in Texas,USA.and I`m happily married to a lovely and caring wife,with two kids A very big problem occurred in my family seven months ago,between me and my wife so terrible that she took the case to court for a divorce she said that she never wanted to stay with me again,and that she did not love me anymore So she packed out of my house and made me and my children passed through severe pain. I tried all my possible means to get her back,after much begging,but all to no avail and she confirmed it that she has made her decision,and she never wanted to see me again. So on one evening,as i was coming back from work,i met an old friend of mine who asked of my wife So i explained every thing to her,so she told me that the only way i can get my wife back,is to visit a spell caster,because it has really worked for her too So i never believed in spell,but i had no other choice,than to follow her advice. Then she gave me the email address of the spell caster whom she visited.(bravespellcaster@gmail.com}, So the next morning,i sent a mail to the address she gave to me,and the spell caster assured me that i will get my wife back the next day what an amazing statement!! I never believed,so he spoke with me,and told me everything that i need to do. Then the next morning, So surprisingly, my wife who did not call me for the past seven {7}months,gave me a call to inform me that she was coming back So Amazing!! So that was how she came back that same day,with lots of love and joy,and she apologized for her mistake,and for the pain she caused me and my children. Then from that day,our relationship was now stronger than how it were before,by the help of a spell caster . So, was now stronger than how it were before,by the help of a spell caster . So, i will advice you out there to kindly visit the same website http://bravespellcaster.yolasite.com,if you are in any condition like this,or you have any problem related to “bringing your ex back. So thanks to Dr Brave for bringing back my wife,and brought great joy to my family once again.{bravespellcaster@gmail.com} , Thanks.

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  13. Change even good change can be scary. I'm moving in less then a week and am freaking out about it. I'm not even moving that far from were I live now. But, it still is a huge change. Just think about how you will get to be closer to your guy and get to spend more time with him. Everything will fall into place and work out for the best. If I didn't work I would probably eat ruffles and watch Netflix all day haha. I'm sure you will find something to occupy your time.

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  14. I want to testify that my wife is back after a Divorce !!!

    Hello to every one out here, am here to share the unexpected miracle that happened to me three days ago, My name is Jeffrey Dowling,i live in Texas,USA.and I`m happily married to a lovely and caring wife,with two kids A very big problem occurred in my family seven months ago,between me and my wife so terrible that she took the case to court for a divorce she said that she never wanted to stay with me again,and that she did not love me anymore So she packed out of my house and made me and my children passed through severe pain. I tried all my possible means to get her back,after much begging,but all to no avail and she confirmed it that she has made her decision,and she never wanted to see me again. So on one evening,as i was coming back from work,i met an old friend of mine who asked of my wife So i explained every thing to her,so she told me that the only way i can get my wife back,is to visit a spell caster,because it has really worked for her too So i never believed in spell,but i had no other choice,than to follow her advice. Then she gave me the email address of the spell caster whom she visited.(bravespellcaster@gmail.com}, So the next morning,i sent a mail to the address she gave to me,and the spell caster assured me that i will get my wife back the next day what an amazing statement!! I never believed,so he spoke with me,and told me everything that i need to do. Then the next morning, So surprisingly, my wife who did not call me for the past seven {7}months,gave me a call to inform me that she was coming back So Amazing!! So that was how she came back that same day,with lots of love and joy,and she apologized for her mistake,and for the pain she caused me and my children. Then from that day,our relationship was now stronger than how it were before,by the help of a spell caster . So, was now stronger than how it were before,by the help of a spell caster . So, i will advice you out there to kindly visit the same website http://bravespellcaster.yolasite.com,if you are in any condition like this,or you have any problem related to “bringing your ex back. So thanks to Dr Brave for bringing back my wife,and brought great joy to my family once again.{bravespellcaster@gmail.com} , Thanks.

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  15. Fellow worry wart here!!!! I feel all your sentiments on the worries of moving. Not necessarily the same ones but all the worries that come with moving. I totally use the "well you're the reason I have to live 16 hours away from my family" all the time, but only in a joking way. In the end, it will all go smoothly and I'm confident you'll find a job fast!
    PS There is nothing wrong with having 17 dogs and them all obsessed with you ;)

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  16. No Target?! That sounds awful.

    Moving can be hard and stressful but it is fun making new memories and discovering all the cool things about your new town!!

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