I've always struggled with my weight. Who hasn't? I talked about it in this post, but it's not something I regularly bring up. I just don't feel like I have much to say on the topic of weight that hasn't been covered by somebody else. Am I insecure? Absolutely. Do I judge and criticize every part of my body in the mirror? Of course. Have I made an effort to change the things I don't like instead of just feeling bad about my shapeless legs or dimply butt? Sure. And that's what I decided to write about: the ways I've tried to lose weight that maybe weren't the best ideas. Ready?
ViSalus. ViSalus is a powder that you use to make shakes. There are a lot of ways to use the powder but what I did was just put the powder in 2 cups of skim milk and drink it like that for two meals a day. One of those drinks was about 250 calories. THAT'S IT. Usually I'd do this for breakfast and lunch and then for dinner I'd have vegetables or an apples. No protein, no carbs, nothing. I think I was eating like, 600 calories/day. NOT ENOUGH. I even ordered these "metabolism boosting" pills because I wanted results more quickly because of instant gratification. And you know what? IT TOTALLY WORKED for like two weeks. I think I lost about 15 pounds, but after those two weeks I was like OMG I AM STARVING AND I NEED FOOD. Jacey was doing ViSalus with me (she had a much more healthy approach and actually ate real food with substance) and one night we decided we were hungry and screw ViSalus so we ate a loaf of French bread and a bottle of wine. And then I broke up with ViSalus because I missed chewing my food and then I gained all the weight back.
**I'm sure ViSalus is effective if used correctly, but the way I did it was not the way it is supposed to be used. I'm not bashing ViSalus at all, I'm simply saying that it wasn't effective for me because I was way too extreme and didn't follow the instructions.**
Daily weigh-ins.Our bodies fluctuate. Water weight, bloating, other scientific stuff that I don't know, etc. By weighing myself every day I became obsessive and I expected too much from myself. I had a digital scale, and if I saw a gain of even .01 pound, I berated myself. I've read that weekly weigh-ins, or not weighing yourself at all and measuring instead work much better, and I think that's true. Plus, it's not realistic (or healthy!) to expect to lost 5 pounds every single week. Just no.
Tracking my food like a fiend. I had a little notebook and I wrote down everything I ate. EVERYTHING. "For breakfast I ate a bagel thin with an egg and 7 almonds. For a snack I ate 3 pretzels. For another snack I took a bite out of an apple." I also wrote down my weight every day. Every. Single. Day. While I do think there's something to be said for writing down what you eat so you can see where you struggle, the way I did it was unhealthy. If I saw a number on the scale I didn't like, I'd look at my book and see what I could have cut out and shame myself into doing better from now on. You ate two eggs for breakfast. From now on you're just going to eat the egg whites.
Not eating. Yep, I've tried it in the past. And guess what? It didn't work. This is absolutely 100% NOT A GOOD IDEA. I'd go for a day or two without eating and see a loss on the scale, and then I'd be proud of myself but I'd also be starving, so I'd binge eat ALL OF THE THINGS. Bread, candy, ice cream... I would tell myself it was ok because I just wouldn't eat for the next two days. Spoiler alert: this was not effective or healthy in any way, shape, or form.
Playing the "if only" game aka complaining instead of changing. You know what I'm talking about. "If only I looked like I did in high school." "If only I was 10 pounds lighter." "If only I could fit into single digit sized pants." Etc etc etc and so on and so forth. I'd sit on the couch with a bag of chips/popcorn/popsicles and complain about my body instead of actually doing something about it. This has become one of my biggest pet peeves. If you're not happy with an aspect of your life, CHANGE IT! (In a healthy way, of course.) Complaining literally did nothing but make me feel worse. Plus I'm sure it drove my friends absolutely insane.
It's been a while since I utilized any of these unhealthy attempts to lose weight, and over the past few months I've actually been pretty successful in getting healthier and, in turn, losing weight. But this post is already long enough so I'll save my "success" post for another day. It's been said countless times that the most important thing is not the number on the scale, it's living a healthy lifestyle. I don't think that can be said enough. Skinny is not important. Healthy is important.
Have you ever used drastic measures to try and lose weight? What healthy ways have you discovered that make you feel better and, in turn, look better?